Two days ago i decided to kill myself ............. Last night I changed my mind and decided to stay alive. At Twenty i have been both a brilliant failure and a dull success. I have made a lot of mistakes that have paid off and a lot of smart moves i'll regret forever.However long it turns out to be. I have gone from rags to riches and back, and managed to hold on to them both, though not to much else. my frens all seem to be dead, fed up with me or just disgusted and who can blame them. And now I am all alone. As I contemplate my life, I realize i only have two problems: the past and the future-- well, future is something else